It wasn’t until I had children of my own that I began to understand what it is you did for me.
Now I know what it feels like to meet your baby for the first time and feel your heart explode in joy.
Now I know what it feels like to sit up all night with a feverish child.
Now I know what it feels like to go to bed knowing you did all you could but wishing you could have done more.
Now I know what exhaustion really means; not just your body being tired but your mind, every fiber of your being so spent, and then seeing that it’s only 4PM.
I know what it’s like to wake up every two hours with a newborn who needs to be fed and changed in the darkness of their room.
I know what it’s like to put a meal together only to have it rejected over and over again.
I know what it feels like to feel like it’s all too much sometimes.
I know what it feels like to wish there were five of you so you can get it all done.
I know, now.
And I want to say thank you. Thank you for being there, for not giving up, for not checking out or running away. Thanks for being there for me when I needed you the most.
You’re an inspiration to me. You rocked me, fed me, clothed me, and loved me even when you felt like closing your eyes and falling into bed.
Your sacrifice is not wasted. I’m who I am because of what you poured into my life.
I’m a mom now and have my own little one. On my hardest days I’ll look at my child and remember five little words that will make all the difference, “She did it for me.” You did it for me, I can do it for them.
Happy Mother’s Day.
Love, your child.